Littlest Thing

I didn't feel so good at school today. So i ditched school and went home after my english class. My parents picked me up but we didnt just leave school and going home, We had to drop my nephew and his momma at the bus station first.


After dropping my nephew, i lay myself down awhile.
I looked up at the window. I gazed the clouds above me, the clouds were a little bit dully, i think.
And it was quiet there. All i hear was a muffled noises from outside the car.

I closed my eyes and the imagination began to start..

So there i was, standing in the dark. Alone. There was this ray of lights appeared but then the scene suddenly changed. I was with my family at my sister's house. We were playing with her cat. We were continually sharing our smiles to each other.
And the scene shuffled, i was seeing myself as a 5th year old kid. I saw mom carrying my baby sister and holding her tightly, she was feeding my sister with a bottle of milk. And from what i saw, i could feel that my sister was feeling fuzzy and warm around my mom's hands.
After that, the scene was abruptly changed again.
This time, i saw my dad with his nonfunniest jokes ever but weirdly, i laughed.

i opened my eyes.

those few seconds of imagination made me realize something.
that i had done something wrong this whole time.

I just realized that this whole 16th years of life is such a waste for me. I'm such an irrelevant human. I didn't know what had come to me all this long. I was countless and brainless back then.

All the bad and good things that happened to me, it was all just a bless from God. Frankly, i was stupid enough to ignore this. I used to think that shit happens. And yea, it happens. But it's just another sign of bless from God.

We, human, can't predict what our futures going to be. Only God knows.
So while we're waiting for our future, why don't we just paused a little while and try to occupy ourself with what we have right now?

I'm really thankful for what God had given to me. I know my family might be not the most perfect family out there, but i love every single bit of them. And this life i'm still pursuing, i promise i'll try to enjoy everything that'll happen to me even the littlest things. No one ever said that life is going to be easy.


L,

A

"life isn't about how you end it, it's about how you enjoy it"